A Knock From The Past – Aditi Gupta

I was doing okay,
But then you messaged,
Saying you want me back.

That you can't stop thinking about me,
That you missed our talks,
Our late-night chats,
And our 3 AM calls.

You said you were sorry,
But when I asked for what?

Your answer was just like that.

You asked me to give you another chance,
Saying you want us to be like before.

But how can we be the same,
When you broke me again?

You said it felt nice when we started talking again.

I asked what you wanted me to do?

You said to be with you.

I didn't know what to say,
So I asked, why me?
When you were the one who ended everything?

Your answer made me laugh,
You said after we broke up you didn't feel right,
So you wanted to give me some time. 

And now, after all the thinking, 
You were here,
Asking me to be with you again.

But bub, you lost your chance,
Because when you had me,
You broke me again.

Love indeed comes in many forms, but our generation thinks a minor attraction qualifies as love. Each of us is seeking someone who is there for us without judging us, but in our search, we meet people who aren't right for us, which makes us even bitter.

But can love be blamed for this? No, we can't blame love for this, because love is not something that can be planned, it happens unexpectedly and with unexpected people, so if you're looking for it, just stop, because they will find you, and they will understand you, with just a glance.

In my opinion, we all feel like we aren't perfect, and even I feel like that sometimes because I've made mistakes and even gone after the wrong guys, but does that mean I've given up on love? At one time, yes, I thought that the concept of love had been emphasized excessively, and we all did this, because of which we are now scared of this feeling where we want someone to be with us all the time. 

As a reader, I am drawn to romantic novels and their happy endings because I know that what I have experienced is not love, and I am not going to seek it out any longer because seeking it only made me miserable, and all I want now is to smile more and be happier. Thus, before you decide to love someone, love yourself first. The person you love may not be with you forever, but you sure will.  

And someone once told me to love little things in life because those little things can make you change a lot. I wrote this because a knock from the past can make you question many things, and it's best to move on because that part of your story is over, and to grind about something that had already happened will only consume your time and will only spoil your present.