Bedtime – Aditi Gupta

I hate my bedtime,
The time when everything stops.

Making everything still.

But this mind wanders,
Creating scenarios that will never be real.

The darkness haunts me,
The loneliness abounds me,
The feeling of betrayal still surrounds me.

I don't know what to expect,
I never asked for much.

The care I wished,
The love I hoped,
The trust I needed was never there when I was at my worst.

It's hard for me to believe that I am cherished.

Several have betrayed me,
I have been hurt by many.

But still, I am naive to trust.

Not sure what to do,
Still searching for the trail to follow.

Wishing this darkness would clear,
And the light of hope shines.

My world is turning dark,
All I want is a little colour to make it bright.