Looking Back!

Making my way through my life. 

Reading through the unfinished chapters, 
Chapters filled with memories. 

A few are happy, 
A few sad, 
Some are excited, 
And some are depressed. 

But each phase has its impact. 
 
There were times I used to cry to sleep, 
It was a time when there was nothing to smile about. 
 
Then you entered my life, 
Revealing a light so bright that, 
It made me shine. 
 
But those glorious days didn’t last long. 

I thought trusting you was the right decision, 
Till it all turned out to be an illusion. 

You broke my trust, 
You made me hate to love. 

I believed in your lies, 
Showing my vulnerable side. 

I made my heart believe, 
That everything is perfectly fine. 

Out of nowhere, 
You stepped into my life. 
 
I saw it, 
As it started to shine. 

I gave you a piece of me, 
Which you didn’t even ask for. 


You spilt your fucking charm, 
Taking me over. 

Perhaps it was just a game of the mind. 

Which perfectly eats you alive. 

It felt so pure. 

Like a veil of hope, 
A hauntingly beautiful bond, 
That only prevails in delusion. 

I thought it was what I wanted. 

As I recall, 
You told me that we were complete. 

It was fate that brought us together. 

What we had was something divine. 

I fell for you, 
But then you left. 

Your absence made my life turn upside down. 

I cried for months, 
I thought I was wrong. 

I had injuries to my heart, 
Which never healed. 

This feeling of betrayal, 
A person should never feel. 

I used to sit on my bed every night. 

Wondering about the past, 
Where we used to smile. 

I was tired of dreaming, 
Through with all the trying. 

Your memories brought back tears. 

But then all those tears took a pause. 

When I saw you with someone else, 
You were keeping your word, 
Being happy, 
And a smile like before. 

My will didn’t stop you from leaving, 
Neither did my efforts. 

The false hope of your return was now gone too, 
Your exit made me strong. 

The blindfold of your love was now down, 
You taught me the biggest lessons of my life. 

Your absence made me realize, 
The importance of my life. 

Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways. 

All this time I was praying for a miracle, 
A miracle that might have led us together. 

I sensed the worthlessness of the person in my prayers. 

Escaping from your glorious lies, 
Got me a step closer to living my life. 

Instead of changing your behaviour, 
You kept on deceiving me. 

Not a prediction, 
You were a clear manipulation. 

But now the cloak of your phoney feelings is removed. 

It changed my life for good. 

This chapter will always be the turning point of my life. 

Where I stopped begging for love, 
And started believing in my worth. 

Something about you availed me. 

That without your love I am completely free. 

Free from lies, 
Free from pain, 
Free from trying, 
Free from tears filled eyes. 

Without you, 
I can perfectly see. 

All the disgusting things, 
You ought to be.