Being alone in a room always left me wondering, how I ended up in the situation that I am in. Eventually, we all find ourselves in a situation where we question our path forward. Where are we? The desire to discover one’s life path is common among us all.
As I sit here writing this blog, I wonder what the point of my existence is. At first, it seemed absurd, but then I realized that where am I is not just a question, but also a reflection of my life choices not only who I am today, but also mentioning the reasons and options I may have had.
My own answer to this question is not very accurate, but I am constantly asking myself this. Knowing what I am facing scares me. It feels like getting to know me better will only cause some unsaid damages which I can’t afford. I want to be responsible without messing up. I want to live a normal life and stay out of trouble. But that seems impossible.
It feels like I am secluded in the depths of the ocean all by myself. As the water level increases, it gets harder and harder to breathe. The weight of my body sank me down as I attempt to move up, leaving me gasping for air and drowning. Feeling completely overwhelmed by sorrow and suffering, without realising that happiness even exists.
But aren’t we all doing the same thing? We are all searching for the same answer. Aren’t we?
Let’s work together to answer this question. Where are we? Are we at the bottom of deep sadness, or are we at the highest point of a mountain with a desire to achieve everything we long for, or are we somewhere between the two, questioning our way forward?
It will take me some time to answer this question because I have yet to figure it out on my own. For those who have already figured out the possible answer, do let me know.
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